Those of you that read my blog know that I have been struggling as we left our old church and have been seeking God's will and direction in our lives.
No, there was absolutely no one
reason we left.
We just felt that God led us away.
We tried a couple different places and felt a strong pull toward one of them.
It just happened to be the same church we had attended before we went to our "old church".
This is hard stuff.
We came at just the right time.
The church was doing a series on 40 Days of Focus and we started attending the week before it started.
The week we started the pastor explained to the congregation that he was going to give them a "tweener" sermon.
This was a sermon that was "in between" two different series, apparently.
In this particular sermon, the pastor talked about what they do with the resources the church gives them.
Let me just say, I was blown away.
The Bible says where your treasures are, there your heart will be also.
This pastor layed it all out there for everyone to hear of what they were doing with the money being given to them through tithes and offerings.
I loved, loved, loved how much they were investing in the children, the youth, and the community.
I loved their vision.
I loved how mission minded they were.
I got in the car and my husband immediately asked me what I thought.
My words were, "Sign me up".
He was in complete agreement.
We didn't really make our decision right then.
We decided we would stick with that church for the "Forty Days of Focus" series, pray about it, and then evaluate to see if God had given us an answer by then.
The church was doing small groups and we felt so out of place.
After all, we had once attended there for a few years and had left.
What if they thought we had no business coming back?
What if they wouldn't accept us?
What if they thought, what are
they doing here?
Once again, no particular reason we left other than this church is quite large.
My husband wanted to sign up for a small group.
Me, I wanted to be contacted by someone.
I felt that would show me where God wanted to put us.
We knew that if we hadn't heard from anyone by Sunday of that first week, we would have to talk to the small group coordinator and ask her to put us in a group.
Friday night, I got an email from the guy that took us in and invited us to his new Sunday School class when we had first attended this church.
He invited us to join his small group.
What?!?
Are you kidding me?
Of course we wanted to join!
We later learned that three of the couples in this small group were also in groups we had been in in the past and our old Sunday School Class as well.
We were so nervous and intimidated when we went to that small group.
I have never felt so welcome.
This was such a wonderful group of people.
We felt like we had picked up where we had left off 4 years ago.
There were four small group meetings and we were sadly only able to attend two due to prior plans.
We absolutely
felt so happy to be among this group of people that made us so comfortable to be ourselves.
They openly discussed their thoughts about the Bible study we were doing.
They openly discussed their weaknesses and faults.
I love that.
I love people that are strong enough to discuss their weaknesses.
Lots of things have happened since we started attending in March, and we feel that we are where God wants us to be for now.
It is still scary sometimes.
It is still hard sometimes.
But God is slowly showing us that He is in this thing.
That is a great feeling to have. :)
I didn't mean to go on about all that.
It just kind of happened.
I meant to tell you about the sermon we had this morning.
It was actually about something God has already been talking to me about.
You see, I've sang the song, "I Surrender All" a gazillion times.
I've thought I meant it a gazillion times.
But...
I think that God showed me something in a different light a few weeks ago.
I have made bargains with God in the past.
Gasp.
Have you ever done that?
I have told God that He can do whatever He wants to in my life.
I have told Him that I will do whatever He asks of me.
I have told Him that I want to do His will.
Here's the but.
I have told Him, "Please, do not ever make me have to move away from home.
You know God, you wouldn't do that to me anyway.
Would you?
Well...please don't.
I'll do anything but that.
I have also told Him, "Please, whatever you do, take care of my family.
Don't let anyone get sick.
You wouldn't let that happen anyway.
Would you?
Well...please don't.
I want your will but not that.
Okay, I'm sure those may be just fine things to say to God.
I still don't really know.
All I know is that He showed me these thoughts for some reason.
I'm working on it and I'm still not quite there yet.
The sermon this morning was about "Who is the boss of your life"?
Pastor Jeff made it clear that you could not be a disciple of Christ unless you let God be the boss of your life.
That everything must be surrendered to God.
I would really like the prayer of my heart to be, "Lord, I truly surrender all.
Not my will, but yours."
Here is one of my favorite older songs by Clay Crosse.